I failed but I'm not a failure

     Failing is just your first attempt in learning but what if you find yourself failing everytime? They say that you only broke your heart once but everytime I remember that day, it broke my heart over and over again. I know to myself that I have done my part very well. I studied well. I didn't even have enough sleep but I still failed. Am I not enough? Why do I always feel like I'm a big mess?

     I have never failed a class until an Oral Communication in Context came in out of no where. It's really hard for me to cope up and to get over about what happened. I really have to treasure and take care of my scholarship or else, I'm gonna die thinking how to bring that back. But then, last Monday, I failed my oral communication exam. That unit plays a big part in my grades for me to continue studying with a scholarship. I have never failed that big even before. Am' I a failure? Yes, yes I'am.

     I'm Rose Ann Ariola from Bulacan. I used to be the valedictorian of my previous school. I'm not boasting myself, but yes, I may look rich but the truth is I came from a poor family. I'm independent enough because I'm paying my own course of study. After school, it always take me two hours before I arrive in my work. After work, I tend to get in charge in taking care of my paralyse father. I don't even have time to review and to do my homeworks early. I don't even mind eating every night and day just to save money for me to have enough allowance for the whole week. Being a working student and taking care of my father at the same time is not that easy but I have to. Pretty great right? But how is it possible that besides the fact that I'm standing on my own feet, I still feel like I'm not good enough? I really want to see myself the way others see me. Am' I a failure? I guess I'am but a little better.

     I'm a daughter of the most high God. I'm a princess of my father who is a king and of my mother who is a queen. I raised myself all by my own. I know how to stand all by my own. I'am a virtuous woman who find courage within my inner self. Now tell me, Am' I a failure? Nope, I'm not and I will never be like that. From now on, I will keep on telling myself that, yes, I might fail but that doesn't mean that I'm a failure. I should love myself. I'm proud that I'm successfully failing in persuing my quest for perfection because I have realized one thing, I can never be perfect. It is only my imperfections that make me perfect.